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Im BACK. From my trip down south to Waitomo Caves. Went blackwater rafting. Was pretty cool. I stayed in a farm house. I know, sounds weird, but it was a good experience, you see and live the farm-ish lifestyle. Although the place was really freaky, (you could make a horror film at the place) times like these, it makes you open up your eyes, and really appreciate for what you have. I am so grateful for what I have right now, and I believe that it's the past that help makes you stronger.

New Zealand has changed me. I dont know why, but it takes you to be somewhere else, or something different, that makes you realise what kind of person you 'WERE'. And I was thinking, was I like 'them'? Did I hang out with the wrong group? What have I made myself into? I'm so glad, atleast I know what is right, and what is wrong (i hope). Atleast I try to control myself (unlike others). I am proud of my decision, of what I controlled myself to do. I dont want to hurt other people's feelings. If you have nothing GOOD to say, DONT SAY IT. If you cant promise that you'll do it, THEN DONT PROMISE AT ALL. There's no point in doing it. That'll make me hate you even more (although it will make me angry, not quite hate). You dont know who you are, but yeah, its you. I dont know why, but am I doing the right thing? Have you ever had my back?

If you dont mean what your saying, and you know that you'll hurt someone else with that smirk of yours, then dont say it. I hate it, I seriously hate it.

Okay, I went a little bit off topic. Lol. So I did enjoy my holiday. I did this Blackwater Rafting thing in Waitomo. The main thing is to see Glowworms in the caves (which was pretty cool) It seems that Glowworms are really WORMS, whose butts glow. Haha. cool eh? and they're kinda like spiders, where they have threads coming down, and that's how they trap food. And it seems that one mosquito, can last them up to 2 weeks without food. Amazing, huh? haha.. so anyway, we had to walk all the way into the caves. Really tiring. Coz we had to get into the Wet suits, which was wet, and icky, but was so funny getting into them and taking pics. hahaha. anyway, so after the long walk, we (me, my sis, 2 cousins and mum) got so tired, and didnt feel like doing the whole blackwater rafting thing anymore. Hahaha! so, we got into the cave, was so dark (we had helmets with a small torch light on top) and we walked and walked and walked..... until water was starting to flow in. It got so scary! it was as if it was raining outside, and we're getting trapped in! hahaha. But anyway, so we had these floaties (like tyres, black in colour) so we had to carry them into the caves too (even more tiring!) So then as we continued walking, we started getting deeper and deeper into the river, inside the cave. get it? haha.. anyway, we got so deep, that we couldnt put our foot on the ground, and even with my height, it was hard to move, even with the skinny long legs and hands. haha. coz, there was no water flow, so you had to move yourself. my group had 13 people. anyway, so as we walked deeper into the cave, the guide asked us to put our foot on to the person's buoy in front of you. haha.. and so we did.. and we someone pulled us in front, so it was fun, looking at the glowworms and relaxing. And then, the guide asked us to sing songs from the country we come from. One group sang a Danish song. and then it was our turn. Haha.. Negaraku? nono. lol. so we sang Rasa Sayang. hahah. it was so cool! singing in a cave. Hahaha.. then we got to a place, where we had to jump off a cliff, a small hill, BACKWARDS. haha.. with our floaties on our bums. haha. and we also got to go on a slide. Apart from the COLDNESS and SCRATCHES and PAINS, it was a fun, exciting adventure. Haha.. Then when we got back, we had our warm shower / hot soup provided by the touring company. And guess what? The toilet / shower is OPEN. I mean, there differentiate the mens / womens shower. BUT inside the shower room, its open. As in there is NO CUBICLE. So.. yeah, you get the picture. Was weird showering. But lucky for me, there were only 3 guys in the group, whereas the rest were girls. And I can tell you, by the noise coming from the girls toilet, it was hard showering together, openly. coz they only had 4 showers. haha. so yeah.. It was a good experience though. Hmmm. What a trip! Oh yeah, the farm which we stayed in, had the CUTEST DOG EVER! haha.. it's called Patch (i dont know whether its a male or female) hahaha.. anyway, it's breed is called AKINA.. and it seems that that particular breed doesnt like humans and are not friendly.. but this one was soo.. soo.. ugh. I love it. i wished i could have taken it back with me! hahaha.. hmmm.

omg. my friend can see ghosts! haha. im serious! FREAKY!!

Hey there. Another update

Got my results back today! Well, was kinda surprised how FAST the teachers finish marking the exam papers here. I just thought that only 'some' tshung tsin teacher's mark really really fast. lol. But then, I was proven wrong. So.. was planning to get into detail about my results. But i guess that can wait :) Im still waiting for 2 more maths papers to be given back. So, yeah.. Wait.

Will be heading to Waitomo Valley this saturday. Am planning to update AGAIN before I leave. But then.... i'll see. I'll be missing my friends Birthday Party at her house. So, i fell so bad :( But ah well, what to do? The weather this week is BAD. Rain. Thunder. Rain. Strong Winds.. etc. You get the picture.. do you? So, i'll hope the weather is fine when we get to Waitomo to go on the Blackwater Rafting this sunday. Haha.

I hate facebook. Coz it's so addictive. Haha. Caught you off guard? lol. You just cant log off. Ugh.

Have been getting ALOT of email from Facebook too. Obviously, coz people go tag me in the pictures when im not actually there. PLUS, talk about me lagi :( eventhough I commented on them too. But atleast I didnt add any 'rude' words (ahem...) So anyway, just saying. no hard feelings.

UGH. this one last week of school is hectic. So many things to do. Seriously cant wait for the hols. Need it so so so badly. And I needa mow the lawn too. Grass grows so fast during spring. Oh yeah, did I mention? SPRINGS HERE. haha. lol. offically on 1st Sept.. long ago... hahahha. lol. sorry bout that.

Songs that I am currently addicted too are - Paparazi (eventhough I heard this song since last year, but the addictive part of me searched youtube videos of Lady Gaga and her performances. And i'm currently addicted to the song. I know.. But it can be annoying sometimes.. i do agree...). Que the Rain by Queen Latifah ( Saw her performance on American Idol & Ellen. Not bad. kinda addicted. not fully yet :) ). Ghetto Flower by J Williams (a NZ artist.. for a change...). Fashion by Lady Gaga ( kinda cool.. the lyrics i mean..). Sweet Dreams by Beyonce (her songs, somehow, just seem so addictive..) Like you crazy by Night Rider Sidekick (a NZ artist too.. i think. Very addicted to the song. if only I could sing high notes. lol. ) Good girls gone bad is starting to get to me. eventhough mj is addicted to this song. Love Drunk by Boys like Girls (not too bad..) I know you want me by Pitbull (omg. Ellen rocked in her dance. Haha. did u see it? Go search it up in youtube. Funny as. ) and and and......... im COMPLETELY addicted to PROUD (one song off the Britannia High soundtrack.) its so so so addictive. plus, the lyrics is good. SO touching. When you think of the lyrics and implement them into your everyday life. It seems so real. Its really good (in my opinion. go download it!)




im gonna blog about the past too. during the hols. so stay tuned. :)

In a relationship --- yeah right. Facebook. LOL.

OH YEAH. important important NEWS.

Thanks Lydia Yong for the gift. From Malaysia. So touched to receive your amazing t-shirt. Haha. It matches my Jacket. So cool. Thanks so so much. a gift from overseas. so amazed. Thanks again. :)


And I am currently getting frustrated at this particular person. So annying. I never really realised how annoying you were.

Ohyeah, i forgot to thank everyone who wished me happy birthday. Thanks again.



Someday i'll make you proud,
Stephen.
Exams Over! Weeeee. A NEW UPDATE, as i promised :)

Have never felt so free since... since... one year ago. Haha. okay, so I had my last exam in the PAC (perfoming arts centre) its like a hall, and like it was so weird having my exam there, coz all my tests and exams here, I've been having them in classrooms / in the commons. And the atmosphere in the PAC reminded me of STTSS exams. And all the memories came flashing back. Like when you hear one person caugh or sneeze or move their feet, you can hear the echo in the whole room. AHHH.. I cant believe such a noise would make me so emotional! LOL. Anyway, so when I was doing my Economics paper, all the memories started coming back. And I had to force myself to concentrate like hell. I wanted to just stop writing, and dream, dream of what it was like in the past. I remember the time Averyl coughed during PMR (and you know, averyl's cough is like *breathe in, then COUGH*) and i remember i laughed my butt off whenever I heard her cough. Haha. sorry bah averyl, but it rememinded me of the good times :) So i forced myself to finish my paper as fast as I could. I had 3 papers for Economics ; TRADE, GROWTH and GOVERMENT POLICIES. And I have to say ALL OF THEM WERE HARD! especially Government Policies. Ugh, anyway, I finished my paper (without going through, double checking) with about 15 minutes to spare, then I just closed my eyes, and went into my sleeping position, and I just used my ears to listen to the atmosphere in the hall. Man, the sudden rush of the memories came back. The whole feeling was just great. And as I open my eyes, I realise, its all my imagination. How I miss the days.

English
Okay, so my english exam in kinda, hard. Coz I didnt really put my whole heart into the exam, somehow, I just felt moody and hated english.

Maths
OMG. a bit fat NOT ACHIEVED will be on my exam answer sheet. I completely lost it in Maths. Its as if I have never learnt anything that was in the questions! I was completely lost.

Media Studies
Now, I think Media is one of the exams which i studied the most, heck, i even wrote a practice essay for it! I memorised everything, coz our teacher told us the topic for the exam, and there's only one essay. so.. the essay was about Representation of Women. I actually kind of enjoyed this topic, although most of my friends thought that it was hard and useless (which is kinda true) But i felt so proud when this one girl came up to me and asked me whether she could read my essay, and she asked me what mark did my teacher give me for my practice essay atc. HAHA. Proud moment okay??? :)


Back to other topics,

So HOLIDAYS are one week away! But I still have one week of school next week, which is kinda SAD. And I have a Business internal, Economics re-sit opportunity for one of my internal, I also have to finish my English reading logs / report and I have to study hard for my Financial Literacy exam in October. Ugh. I thought I would be free after the exams, but who knew??

I will be going to the Waitomo Glow Worm Caves in the holidays. And hopefully, if the weather allows us, we will going to try the Blackwater Rafting too! It's like we go through this cave and glow worms are there and stuff. We would be sitting on 'car tyres' while going into the caves, which would be so exciting! Haha. cant wait :) it will be my interpretation of my own 'pulau' trip. lol.

I hope to change my blog template, etc. A change is needed every once in awhile, aye?

Sad to say, it is confirmed that I wont have internet at home (KK) when i go back :( Boo.. coz the internet connection has been disconnected since i left, and it seems that there is no short-term connection at the moment (but I believe that my dad just doesnt want me to have internet at home coz that causes sleepless nights and neverending downloads. So... yeah. sad..

I feel so guilty. Cause I kept turning my laptop on and searching youtube videos and surfing the net when I am not supposed to. Coz I was meant to be studying.... and yet, I went online. Ugh, i feel so bad. But how could I resist watching Kanye West interrupting Taylor Swift? Haha. What a shocker there! I cant believe it. I felt so bad to Taylor Swift. Not saying I agree with Kanye, but Beyonce's MV for Single Ladies was really good. But I enjoyed Taylor's too! haha. An Lady Gaga's too! why cant there be 3 awards? Lol. Im kinda getting myself sucked into the life of Lady Gaga. I dont know why. But Lady Gaga makes me go GooGoo Gaga. Lol. I just made that up. Haha.

I am planning to blog about the high school years soon. But it seems like i'm always lazy, coz, it will definitely be a long long long blog entry. Hahahaha. Well, I'll see, when the time comes :)

The weather is finally getting warmer now! Like 16 Degrees. Ahhhh. finally! Imagine, KK's airconditioning, if you set it to 16 degrees, you might think that it's COLD, but 16 degrees for me now is like a piece of cake. haha. its so warm :)

Hmmm.. what else??? OHH!! My Birthday :) hahahah. I will update with the pics soon. Had a good day. Went to school, 3 teachers wished me happy bday (coz when they take the attendance online, they have like a star sign whenever its the students bday, so yeah) and my economics teacher sang Happy Birthday to me. Lol. the fast version. Haha. so touching, in a way. Lol.

Will update soon again :)
Stephen.
What a shame / waste!

Lady Gaga rocks my socks off and I can't imagine anyone, who would buy her concert ticket and NOT get high? I mean, HELLO, there are other people out there who would kill to watch her live. I just dont understand. I feel so sad for her, she took the time to sing and dress, and the fans arent really supporting her. If only I were there... Ahhhh....

Just watch.









I know I should be studying. HELP.


Stephen
Maths was HARD. Super hard.

No objectives ( I wish ) & I didnt have enough time to finish the paper :(

I didnt even feel confident in getting ONE question correct. And I cant believe that I was thinking of taking 2 Maths Subjects next year. ARE YOU CRAZY? Ahhhh. Im doomed.









That is why Lady Gaga rocks.

YES, Exams, and Im still going through Youtube. Boo me.

pray for me,
Stephen

I think I know why Im moody now.

MARIA SHARAPOVA LOST!

6-3 4-6 5-7

WTF MAN.


Stephen


I've been so tired these few days! UGH! why? Because, Exams are here. I didnt know that this exam would be so stressful! I just thought that this would be an 'easier' type of exam. Since my experience of having 4 exams, sometimes 5 exams in one year would pay off. But it seems that it's not true. I guess that its just the nerves! haha. We get a few days off during the 1 and a half weeks of exams. So i hope that, that would help me. STTSS would never give us these type of opportunities.



* As you can see, Thursday would be the day where two subjects of mine clashes - Media Studies and Economics! AND, at the same time! In the morning! Coincident much???? Haha. So I have to wait for my Whanau Leader to confirm with me regarding this. Ahhhhhh..

Im completely lost in Economics -- Im terribly afraid of Maths -- Im so anxious about my English essays -- Im not quite sure what to write in my Media Studies Essays



Anyway, to steer away from the 'exam-ish topics', I just realised that its SEPTEMBER ALREADY! Wahhhh. how time flies! hahaha. So quick eh? I cant wait to go back to the warm, extremely sweaty, fun KK. haha. That would be my next topic, IT'S GETTING COLD AGAIN IN AUCKLAND. WTH??? Its getting really cold now. After the weather having been ALL WARM & COZY. Everybody, im serious, EVERYBODY is commenting on the cold-ness. hahahaha..

Let's see... I need to update myself in the MOVIE department! Im so lost - ONE YEAR's MOVIES ARE HARD TO CATCH UP ON. HAHAHA. I didnt watch a single movie in NZ. Obviously, it costs about $20 for one movie with food & drinks. SO, if you convert it, (X 2.5) RM50! And this would mean multiple trips to the cinema in Malaysia, PLUS, multiple *unamed* discs (ahem) to buy in KK too! hahahha! get it? Anyway, the conclusion is, I NEED TO UPDATE MYSELF.

Im feeling so down lately. I just dont know why. Wait! What am I saying, of course I know why! hahha.. I think Hajar does too. Hahaha :)

Listening to Maria Sharapova NOW. LIVE, at 6.45, woke up at 6.00 A.M. Muahaha. GOOD LUCK MARIA. Her draw has opened up in her bracket of the Womens Draw. Please oh please.... Maria. Bring this one home!

My mind is not set on blogging, its currently set on one thing now - MARIA SHARAPOVA :)



antes de hablar pensar,
esperemos que no nos falle el tiempo,
Stephen.

But I remember many big names coming to the academy and practicing. I wasn't overwhelmed by them. I admired them. I always wanted to watch them practice. But I wasn't sitting there with my mouth open and saying, Oh, my goodness, I want to be that person one day.

From this day on, when people tell me, like a girl or little boy comes up to me, say, We're so inspired by you, I want to be just like you. I always say, No, you want to be better than I am. You always want to be better. By no means am I perfect.

Maria Sharapova

Go Maria. Love you.

Good Luck for the US OPEN 2009 :)

I'll be praying

Love,

Stephen

Selamat Hari Merdeka.

Stephen