Sunday, August 22, 2010
School exams are drawing closer! I dont know if I'm prepared just yet.Went to Muriwai Beach last Friday for my Geoography Trip. Its for my external paper for Natural Processes. It was POURING rain when I got there. So that didn't help at all. But all in all, it was a productive trip. I finally got to see Black sand! It's from the Waitakere Volcano and it's full of iron. Lol. I cant really remember now. But yeah, it was fun going to Muriwai.
Finally completed my English Speech. I got chosen to go first, what luck! I couldn't believe it, out of the 20 plus students in my class, and I got picked first! But now, it's all over. And I am so glad. Finally got out of it. I did okay I guess. Nothing special.
I've been in a really bad mood lately. Caused by two main things. I think im getting too frustrated over it. And I feel like I should let it go. But I dont know if I can let it go just yet. Argh. Why does good things have to turn out bad? Why does it get so complicated. I feel so so so frustrated now. Very frustrated.
sometimes, I dont know whether I should believe the saying 'listen to your heart'. but what if your heart is wrong? Hmmm.. I dont understand at all.
Looking back at stuffs, I realise that I never had that special someone to rely on. Well, it's kinda hard to describe it, but I feel incomplete without someone being there, to help me and guide me through tough times and all. Hmmm. I like thinking bout the past and past memories. But maybe, not about this one.
I was thinking bout some random stuff the other day. And I realise that I am very fortunate to have learnt alot, and being brought up with good manners. I dont know, how people survive with such bad manners, esp those who are inconsiderate. I guess that I would just have to live with people around me who are not perfect. Well, the people I thought who were good turns out not to be. What a disappointment.
I finally got my correspondence from all the universities I applied for. Now I need to really think hard about my futures. I dont know what to do and where to go.
How do you get over stuff when you can seem to get over them? Hmmmm..
只是简简单单的爱过
我还是我
简简单单的伤过
就不算白活
简简单单的疯过
被梦带走
当故事结束之后
心也喜欢一个人寂寞
Stephen
Saturday, August 14, 2010
We're so sexy togetherWhen we touch
Hotter than summer weather
That's what's up.
No one else does it better
You know that everybody knows what we got
We're sexy together
Travis Garland's songs are addictive! We're so sexy together :)
These few days have been rough for me. A few tough days have gone by, and more to come! Exams are in 4weeks, and the real NCEA exams are in 13 weeks. *Joy*
I havent been really studying. Well, I havent because im having topic tests almost every week, and so im busy revising on the tests itself, and not on the whole subject & exam content.
So, what is there to update? Ok, firstly, today has been a BAD day. Being a friday, I was happy and all, being that it's the last day of the week and stuff. But who knew, it turned out to be so bad. I came back from the computer pods in school to my english class. I asked my teacher a question about our speech presentation. And then she answered my question. Literally, about 3 seconds passed, and she said 'Stephen, you're up first!'. I was literally 'wtf'. My facial expression was :O. I was shocked. She drew names out of a bag, and coincidentally, mine was first. Out of like.. 20+ people. Come on, the possibilities of me being first was so small. And yet, I got the jackpot. Man I should've went to buy a lotto today. Anyway, so im doing my speeches on Advertising next thursday. Bummer. I will be doing it on Celebrity Advertising. And I will be touching on Sports Stars first. And you know me, of course i'll touch on my baby, Maria Sharapova :) Teehee.
Ohhh. It was Botany's Got Talent the other day. MY school had this competition. Had I known that there were so many prizes up for grabs, I would've joined myself. My dream performance would be to play California Gurls and get cans of whipped cream and just spray it throughout the hall. Im dead serious. It would've been AWESOME. Anyway, it was Carrers Expo last thursday. It was pretty funny and stuff. Got some free gifts. Pretty cool. And, it was EXO day today. Another... fun day I guess. Man term3 doesnt sound that bad at all. lol
I've gone throught applying for Uni already. Except for one, Auckland Uni! The hardest / best for last I guess. I applied for like, almost all the unis in Nz. LOL. AUT, Waikato, Lincoln have been submitted. Now needa go to school and ask about Otago and Victoria Uni. :)
Studies have been so-so lately. But school life has been.... hectic I guess. Dealing with some other problems. I think I needa get away from school. Lol. Go on a mini vacation. muahaha. I keep telling myself encouraging words, to keep myself going. But I dont know if what im saying is correct. I hope it is. Sometimes, when we struggle in life, you just need a way to let it all out. Unfortunately.
So, I've been imagining stuff. dreaming of possibilities in life. I could not have felt so disappointed and sad in my life. when you feel like things are going right for you, it turns out the other way. It's gradually becoming an itching feeling now. And I hate it. I hate it.
I hate my media class now. I feel like it's a waste of time. Nothing is interesting & appealing to me. Plus the people are like SHIT in my class. Seriously.
Oh I will be going to Muriwai Beach this coming Friday. Its a geography trip. Weee. Unfortunately, I wont be able to go and play in the sea and stuff. As it is dangerous and winter, so it would be freezing! We'll be going to see the natural processes and features. The beach, sand dunes, waves etc. Hopefully the weather would be good and the trip goes well. Photos to come!
Im sorry, for believing in you. I really am.
"Inflexibility is one of the worst human failings. You can learn to check impetuosity, overcome fear with confidence, and laziness with discipline. It carries the seed of its own destruction"
I dont know how I should feel nor how I should act. Should I keep it trapped inside? And just feel the pain? or let it out? But the problem is, I dont think I have the chance to do the latter :(
Good Luck Maria Sharapova in the US Open Series and US OPEN 2010!
I guess maybe we're not so sexy together,
Stephen
